Letters to Xiao Qiqi

Qiqi, In the morning of December 31, 2019, the new year eve, mommy took auntie, Yiyi and Arya to LAX airport. They were taking an early flight back to Ithaca. When mommy waved at them for good-bye at the airport, mommy had a moment of flash-back- there were many reunions and good-byes with my dear sister. Many of them took place in Ithaca. My sister and my mom would drop me off at Ithaca airport and I returned to California alone. I felt lonely. My mom would worry about me being alone and lonely. Once I flew back on the new year eve. Now I have you and daddy in my life. My life has changed. I love you and daddy so much. When I walked out of the airport, the sun was rising. I took a glimpse of the morning ray. Tomorrow is the new year 2020 and new decade. It will be your first new year. I still remember millennial new year eve. I was in New York but I didn't go to the Time Square. It was too cold and crowded. Two decades have passed. Wow... how many decades we have in ou...

Qiqi, Your life started with a double A fertilized egg , made of the only ONE good egg from mom and a special sperm from daddy. We named you Xiao Qiqi (meaning a little miracle). Mommy had this name in my mind when I found I was miraculously pregnant through IVF. You are a miracle for me. You are truly a blessing from GOD. Mommy was single and alone for many many years before I met daddy. I was 40 when I met daddy. Daddy took mommy out for her 40th birthday. Mommy cried over the dinner and thought I was too old to have kids of my own. Daddy, on the the hand, thought he'd never have kids of his own because he doesn't want to. Mommy always dreamed to have family. I dreamed to have my own children. In those single and lonely days, I manifested a loving family where we hike, bike, travel and read together and mommy would make nutritious and delicious breakfast for my children on Sundays before we are off for any fun activities/events. In those days, I prayed that GOD would give me ...